The Heart is Right
"The Heart Is Right to cry Even when the smallest drop of light, of love, is taken away
perhaps you may kick ,moan, scream in a dignified silence
but you are so right to do so in any fashion until God returns to you."_Hafiz
These last few months have presented me with a whirlwind of change. Most days, I feel as if the rug has been pulled out from underneath me and I am just praying to find my feet on the ground once again. But what I am continually fascinated by in this life, is that we continue to believe in our minds that we can have predictable stability, and that we are entitled to have our lives go in the way we imagine. It's almost humorous, if it weren't so painful. I hate to be cliche, but the only thing constant is change. Thank God for that.
But the heart will cry when we are amidst change. A friend and mentor told me that the soul doesn't care about our wants.... the soul merely wants to expand. And so we are asked to live in a world where we cast our desires out, and maybe even act on them, but we don't have any control. Because when a beautiful person or event or thing comes into your life, it is only natural to want to hang on for dear life, saying "Yes! This is it! I have finally found the missing piece of my puzzle".
The mastery of life, though, seems to me to be a gratitude and acceptance of all wonderful things, along with a total willingness to let it/ them go when the timing is right.
And the heart will break, and cry and scream and moan.
Fall is my favorite season. When the time comes for the Oak trees to let go of what no longer serves them, they do. And they stand naked, unknowing that new life will emerge from their divine branches.
I feel like an old Oak tree right now.
Change is uncomfortable, painful and scary. We cannot see what is ahead of us, and we have no idea what is going to happen. But if I can learn from the trees, than I know that spring is coming.
And new life is about to emerge from my branches.