I want to go back to a time when I would spend the afternoons soaking up the sun, my fingers wrinkled from swimming all day and my carefree nature and imagination led me into what seemed like grand adventures. Life feels like it has changed. As an adult, I am broken, distracted and looking for my next quick fix to happiness. I will sit for hours binge-watching life on a tiny computer screen, in a room adjacent to another human, all the while missing my own life’s movie. I am drowning in propaganda and news for mass profit; I don’t know where truth begins. I continually ache for approval and desire the high of feeling of being liked or being considered interesting. I am deeply saddened by our governing forces; I feel left behind, disregarded and unheard. I am beginning to numb to the mass shootings, the poisonous and deeply rooted corruption in our government and economy and the seed of hatred between neighbors. I am tied down, right now, by the will of my own mind and my own vicious thoughts.
This is an amazing time to be alive, my friends.
The whole world, as we have grown to understand it, is seemingly falling apart and we are grabbing on to any sense of comfort we could possibly get our hands on.
What would happen if we let it?
What would happen if that was actually Okay?
What would happen if stepped into the freedom of not knowing and awakened to our child-like wonder once again?
I want to feel everything, pull myself out of the mind’s trap of continual chatter. I want to let my world fall apart, surrender so deeply to all that I feel and fall to pieces in the universe’s glorious hands.
Yes, there is change to be made. There are people to stand with and there are injustices to be healed.
We must first HEAL the separation that we feel.
Loved ones, do you honestly believe that you are going through all of this alone right now? We can deeply surrender and watch the thoughts that separate dissolve.
We have cleverly calculated every single way that we differ from one another. What if we, instead, used our collective consciousness to wake up to our human similarities? As a child, we are born into feeling everything. One moment, we are broken by the sadness of not getting what we want, then immediately cured by a beautiful thought. We used to surrender so easily. I want to badly to feel that again. I want so badly to feel it all.